Did They Ever Know Me

loverlover · 12-16-2007, 11:21 PM

What is it about friends that make you think more
About wanting something else out of life?
They discuss your problems with you
And advice you on what you should do

Not knowing the effect it has, 'cos you're living on the edge of a knife!

All the time they think they know you
But let's face it, they only see a part, not all
But what they can see
Is a trifle of what is reality
The rest is hidden behind a solid and non-negotiable brick wall!

They know nothing of what I've suffered in the past
Which has affected me so much
But in the end will they discover
That you can't judge a book by its cover
Then betray me as they do, as they are just not in touch!

I have gone through enough over the many years that I've lived
And have accepted these events as best as I can
So do not try to pass on
These "things" that are gone
It doesn't do any good to ponder over what is past, but not forgotten!

But someone always digs and thinks they know best
In finding the 'real' you as you were before
Then they think they can take
The pain that's inside - big mistake!
They know nothing of what's been endured, that's for sure!

So Ok, you want to know what's happened to me in the first place
Let me try and explain it to you
At five until nine years, I suffered abuse
Till I thought I'd never be of any use
Then a curse put on my childhood pretty face!

And because of this face that you all seem to envy,
My life has experienced too many things!
So don't believe,
All that you perceive,
It's brought me unhappiness and everything else that bad luck brings!

Over the years I've been labelled so many titles,
Such as Drama Queen and Actress and many more.
But did you ever stop to ask,
Why I'm wearing this mask?
Perhaps to hide what happened to me in my life before!

Having had to deal with abuse and rape,
And the tragedy of five of my children dying,
Then my husbands affair,
Plus his disappearance of six weeks somewhere,
Should explain my behaviour when sometimes you find me crying!

I have always loved with a passion that's deep,
And my friends say that I look for too much.
But if I'm there for you,
No matter what you do,
Is it so hard to receive the same, or straws am I trying to clutch?

Maybe the façade I show is too strong for some,
But those that know me see a different side.
Inside a love and a heart that's kind,
A more loyal friend you won't find,
And a mouth that stays shut, if there's something private you wish to confide!

Then the one time I find some one I think is a true person,
One who'll back me, as I would do them,
A deep and loyal friend,
On whom I can depend,
Betrays my trust and becomes more of an irritating problem!

So whilst I know what people think of me
And yes, it hurts; though I won't always let it show!
I will continue to look for some one
Who believes in morals and devotion
And won't back stab you, just lets your friendship grow!

If you step back and see the people who gossip
You'll see they are bored with nothing to do each day
So when the gossip they start
Do not listen, just depart
And feel proud that you did the right thing, not one friend did you betray!

If everyone followed this simple advice
There'd be no second and third hand gossip to render
No raking of dirt
And no one would be hurt
Just friends around us, who would remain loving and tender!

So next time you go to open a discussion
And you're about to discuss a friend
Are you really showing respect
To the person you're about to dissect?
Would you like it done to you from a person you had hoped you could depend?

No matter what, I'll continue to hope
That one day I'll find the person I'm looking for
As I know I'm not unique
In the type of friend I seek
And they'll gain a faithful friend, who'll die for them, that's for sure!

Enrique_lus · 12-20-2007, 09:27 PM

...............thanks